There is a time to work hard and a time to rest. Scripture does not place those in opposition. It invites us into rhythms where both are honored.
The challenge is knowing which one the day is asking for.
When I feel the weight of my to do list pressing in, my instinct is to push harder. To perfect. To earn. But perfection is a ruthless master. It drives and never says enough. Over time, it begins to erode the very things I care most about.
God does not lead that way. He draws. When I slow down enough to notice the difference, I hear the invitation. Be drawn, not driven.
Drawn toward my family. Toward rest. Toward the people right in front of me. Drawn toward grace. Toward the joy of writing, not the pressure of publishing. Drawn toward obedience, not obsession.
I remind myself often that God’s will, God’s way, and God’s strength must all work together. If one is missing, even good work becomes exhausting.
That is why I am choosing a gentler structure instead of rigid schedules. I set aside up to three hours each day for focused work. If it does not all get done, I close the laptop and let it wait. I am not in a race. I am not here to prove anything.
And I do not work at night. Evenings are for laughter around the dinner table, for reading in bed, for being present. That is the life I want to build. One where my family is not just supported by what I do, but shaped by how I live.
The heart behind Grace in the Disarray cannot come at the cost of the people I love most. As I shared in my last post, I want my life to reflect what matters most, not just what feels urgent.
So for this season, I am stepping away from regular writing on the blog for the summer.
This is intentional. It is part of living out the priorities I have been writing about. I want to create space to be fully present with my family, to finish my three and four year old curriculums, and to continue writing without the pressure to publish.
I will be back here in September. Until then, I am choosing to live what I believe instead of just writing about it.
Because when I am led by His Spirit instead of pressure, peace has a place to grow.
Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ. — Galatians 1:10
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